lady_organa: (Default)
So I've never been the biggest fan of the military. As a teenager I was against the war in Iraq, but I never really thought too much about the military. A guy I was crushing on was planning on going in and me being all Bella-like was prepared to be a military wife. So no at that point I didn't really have anything against going into the military.

But the events of the past few years plus my self learning into how black Americans are treated in this country have really made me gain more of an opinion on this topic. I was reading a post on FB about a black woman that supposedly committed suicide while enlisted. But it all the clues didn't add up. She may or may not have been murdered. But the military, the people she was basically giving her life for closed the case. They agreed with the coroner.

Now some you may know that my boyfriend has been planning to enlist in the National Guard. When he told me I was afraid. I didn't want him to go because I didn't want to lose him. At that point I wasn't necessarily thinking about the fact that he would be a black man in the military. But as I got home and processed it more I started to ruminate. You would have to be under the deepest rock in the sea to not notice at how many black people are being killed in America. It's not just black men though they are more visible. I don't understand why as a black person you would enlist in a army to defend a country that does not care about you. I just don't. I'm sure we as black people feel patriotic just like everyone else. But for me that does not extend to my life on the line for a country that would spit on my grave. Just no.

One of my LJ friends asked me to post the story I sent to my boyfriend. It's a very short story but it seems up what I wrote above in a fictional way.

Read more... )

This entry can also be found on DW at:
lady_organa: (Default)
I just watched Selfie. The first two episodes.

Here's my thoughts.

I like both the main characters. Their names are escaping me but I know the actors names so let me refer to them like that.

I like Karen's character. I think she is this generation taken to an extreme. I do believe a lot of us are worried too much about our online life. I mean I usually don't obsess about Tumblr notes but I've been monitoring that more now. Am I on my way to obsession? Maybe. Maybe not. I think it's natural to want to be liked. I think that's what Karen's character is figuring out. That online popularity doesn't always translate to real life.

And on the opposite end of the pole we have John's character. He's a self described Gen X. He's a workaholic and kinda stiff. I think his traits are also amplified to make a point. But I think he's seeing that he has things he needs to work as well.

The show is really cute and I'm enjoying it so far.

This entry can also be found on DW at:
lady_organa: (Default)
I read somewhere that JKR said her heroine was Jessica Mitford. I started to think about that whole concept. I thought: Who would be my heroine?

And you know who popped into my mind? Anne Boleyn.

There is something about Anne that fascinates me and I know I'm not the only one. She was like composed of opposites it seems. And she was really forward and determined which made her really out of place in her own times. Maybe that's why she fascinates me. Like I even have my favorite Anne portrayed on the screen (Helena Bonham Carter thank you very much.)

So what about you guys? Who's your personal heroine or hero if that's the case.

This entry can also be found on DW at:


Dec. 8th, 2013 05:01 pm
lady_organa: (Default)
I have a sort of litmus test that I try with potential dates to see if they pass. I'll try to slyly try to sneak something into the conversation about feminism. Now see I don't actually say feminism because a lot of people have a knee jerk reaction to that. I said once that I was thinking about majoring in Women's Studies. I said to another that I was interested in women's rights. So I try to gauge people's esp. the men's reaction. So far so good.

And this is just random but I was on ONTD and I was looking at the Jenner sisters post and I remember all these quotes were their like "We aren't Kardashians" and I'm thinking to myself but you're using that Kardashian name to boost yourself up. I mean...don't be hypocritical. That name is famous but don't try to act like you've got to where you are without the help of that name.

I have feelings apparently. This is where I talk about them. So there.

This entry can also be found on DW at:
lady_organa: (Default)
That line spoken by Anakin seems to be coming back to me especially lately. I was just telling my mom that I want more than what our lives are now. I want more money. I want more knowledge. I just want it all. I want it.

There's this saying that I've heard a lot: Be thankful for what you've got. I'm tired of being thankful. I know that we aren't as worse off as we could be. That we're only in relative poverty. But is it bad that I want more than I have? I want to make a better life for myself and for my family. I just...I want more than I have. I don't think that's such a bad thing.

Another thing I was thinking about recently. Both Jay Z and Lil Wayne aren't known for being attractive right? But I've been thinking about my responses to them. Why do I find Jay Z passable? But Lil Wayne disgusting? I mean they both put down women. Sure I love Jay and Bey's relationship but the way he refers to her in some of his songs just make me disgusted. I wonder if the way I respond to them have something to do with their complexions? Jay is noticeably lighter than Wayne. Idk that was just something I was thinking about.

I finished reading A Lady Dares today and I really enjoyed it. I like that Elise didn't try to change Dorian. Because let's be real trying to change someone rarely if ever works so I appreciate seeing that.

I started a paranormal romance this evening. It's another category line. I like it so far but the hero's name is just killing me. Certainly When I read that I was like is that for real haha.

This entry can also be found on DW at:
lady_organa: (Default)
One of the things I fear in having a daughter is that our relationship will end up like my grandmother and my mother, my grandmother and her mother. I'm seeing a pattern in these relationships. It wasn't until recently that I heard my grandmother talk bad about her mother. While I was growing up she always talked fondly of her, but recently she's expressed negative things about her similar to the way my mom expresses things about my grandmother.

My mom and I don't have the greatest relationship ever. She's prone to criticizing me about my body and what not. I've been trying to talk to her about this but she always hides behind the guise of health concerns. She might be concerned about that, but really it's a vanity thing. That's why I got so angry at her back in June with the whole hysterectomy issue. She was making it completely about my weight. It couldn't because because there was something wrong internally, no it had to be my weight. She'll say stuff like "You'd be even prettier if you lost some weight." Which ticks me the fuck off. I'm already pretty. I am a fucking boss at any weight.

We are working things though. Last night I talked to her about how my grandmother and my uncle slut shame her for having a lot of boyfriends but he has/had just as many, but no one says shit and I saw a strain of recognition in her eyes. I told her that's how I feel when she always pressure me to be more ladylike but never says anything about my brother doing the same shit. Example both of us are messy but I'm expected to clean up but she never admonishes him for his messiness. I hope she can start to understand better.

Anyway I was just thinking about that last night. I want to have a better relationship with my future daughter(s) if I have one.

This entry can also be found on DW at:

September 2016

4567 8910


RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Sep. 24th, 2017 09:20 pm
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios