lady_organa | I Want More

That line spoken by Anakin seems to be coming back to me especially lately. I was just telling my mom that I want more than what our lives are now. I want more money. I want more knowledge. I just want it all. I want it.

There's this saying that I've heard a lot: Be thankful for what you've got. I'm tired of being thankful. I know that we aren't as worse off as we could be. That we're only in relative poverty. But is it bad that I want more than I have? I want to make a better life for myself and for my family. I just...I want more than I have. I don't think that's such a bad thing.

Another thing I was thinking about recently. Both Jay Z and Lil Wayne aren't known for being attractive right? But I've been thinking about my responses to them. Why do I find Jay Z passable? But Lil Wayne disgusting? I mean they both put down women. Sure I love Jay and Bey's relationship but the way he refers to her in some of his songs just make me disgusted. I wonder if the way I respond to them have something to do with their complexions? Jay is noticeably lighter than Wayne. Idk that was just something I was thinking about.

I finished reading A Lady Dares today and I really enjoyed it. I like that Elise didn't try to change Dorian. Because let's be real trying to change someone rarely if ever works so I appreciate seeing that.

I started a paranormal romance this evening. It's another category line. I like it so far but the hero's name is just killing me. Certainly Jones...wtf? When I read that I was like is that for real haha.

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